Look, a real post!

Yes, I finally updating this blog with more than just one weird paragraph that is either angsty or incoherent! :)

School
Spring semester ended with much enjoyment. I got a 3.9 (those darn A-). I am just happy that I passed. I was starting to go crazy with the mad studying, working, and trying to be a good girlfriend.

I am not fully out of school now. I am interning at the San Mateo County Library. I am specifically working in their Literacy department. I am tutoring ESL students, specifically adults, and reading to children. I am also working on getting some workshops dealing with information literacy (something I have started gaining interest in during the spring semester). So far it has been great. I love my two learners, and one of them made it to his goal! He says it is because of me, but I know it took a lot of work to get there.

Life
Life is good! Nothing much to say. The girlfriend and I are doing well. Some bumps, but we are working on it. I am very happy with where my life is going. I am getting more and more excited about when I am finished with grad school and going forward in my career. I am also looking forward to being able to get my feet fully on the ground and be able to move out of my parent's house. Although I am very grateful that they let me stay with them, I would like to start having my own household. I feel that it is definitely time. Soon. Soon.

Books
Now that I am not doing any homework or studying, I am reading a lot of books. I finished three amazing books: "Water for Elephants" "The Night Watch", and "Bonk". Now I am going into my literature with D.H. Lawrence. I find it funny that I go from a book that delves into the study of sex (very blunt and with lots of technical terms) and then I go into a novel that insinuates all things sexual with metaphors. It's fun! It's like, "Guess where the sexual innuendos are!" I love it. It makes me want to write again...

All right...on to my next adventure!

I am so tired of being pushed away. Pushed away from friends. From everyone. Why has it become so hard to find any relationship (friendship or otherwise) that just stays? It doesn't involve people lying or not bothering to reply. Why is it so hard to find someone that will always be there, no matter what?

Yes, I have issues. I know. But I am tired of always finding myself the pushed end of things. Always that distance. I hate it. O always have. It seems that I haven't gotten used to the seasonal thing. It's either I am in or insufferable.

It is true. No matter how many people you fill your life with, you can still be lonely as fuck. Especially if they all have decided to never reply back.

It's sad to look back at everyone you call a friend (even with all the great things happening in your life) and find only a very small group of people that would truly help you in a crisis. I had thought that part of my life is over, but apparently it still continues. Ah well. Life goes on, I guess.

I am just tired, that's all.